good day.
it is my 3rd week working as a houseman in hospital tuanku fauziah, kangar.
i was lucky, and i am grateful for getting surgical department as my first department.
compared to the other departments, i think surgery provides the most 'off hours' and off days.
and give me quite a complacent time to get used to the system as a first poster.
here, i am still learning. got so many new things to be learned and improved and corrected.
i wouldn't say it was easy. it is not.
it is true what my prof once told us..
"once you become a houseman, you will know langit ni tinggi ke rendah"
"you will become a burden to the system, the ward, the nurses, the sisters, and moreover your bosses.. and you will become like the lowest ranking organism 'amoeba' in the system.."
it was funny back then. and i am laughing right now because i know that it's real. oh my sweet medical student days.
But, believe... that everything happened in this world, God knows it all. In every difficulties in good deeds, there lies a reason and purpose for that.
I think the bigger challenge for me is to deliver the most important purpose of being born as an USIM doctor: to integrate the spiritual aspect in our everyday management in the ward. Not only it involve the relationship between us and the patients. but it also revolves around our team and.. the whole system! And most importantly.. the change and determination must starts within you.
I am very upset for a few things... well, it will be quite sensitive and senseless to bring it up here.
My concern is, i am worried if i would become a 'fitnah' of my beautiful deen for the certain actions i am taking. i know the excellent individuals will be able to make balance of whatever it is
happening. But it is a big challenge for me.
InsyaAllah, i pray that i will cope with the current demand and at the same time, not loosing up to them. May one day, a better system that takes into account the spiritual needs and balance takes place here and everywhere.
okay. enough for now. da.
