it was quite a long day. joined the paeds ward round in the morning, seminar in the afternoon, followed by my presentation on lung cancer. then, we went for solat maghrib at the mosque and had a dinner at Bugis kopitiam with a nice hot toffee. and later went on call: tonight to clerk a case for my case write up.
it was not really like one of my busiest day as a medical student. there are times when i could just skip my meal not noticing. and that was very significant for me.
but today is just the day for the 'reality' to wake me up again. Being ignorant and complacent for certain things is nice, but it won't save you. in the end, the one who should be responsible for every little steps we took in our life would be .. ?...... ourself! isn't that what Islam taught us? to CHOOSE between right and wrong. and to think before we act because everything will be justified and bring to a +1 or -1 etc in the hereafter.
being comfortable where sometimes everybody around seemed to be nice to be relied on is nice. (? ayat susah faham?) but sometime we just forget the hardship. and we worked less and we expected too much from the others. but sometimes life is all about the test right?
Homogeneous is good. but i seemed to learn that certain people just want to be different from the others by many means. name it healthy or irritating. healthy is good, but like they say, antara keperwiraan dan keangkuhan, pemisahnya amat nipis. this is where some people would just hit the other in front and walk away, as long as they get what they want. and it was called : selfishness. hey, selfishin striving excellence is good! but selfishness by hurting others won't be good.
maybe me myself is one them? i hope not. let me remind myself; life has a reason. and the reason is not to lead us to count what we got and how far we've become and appreciated in this world. but, the real reason will make us count what we've done to the others. and what else can we contribute.
be strong and better.
